Wednesday, July 26, 2023

My First Circle - a Picture Walk and Reflection

Not sure what this Circle I speak of is?   Click here to be enlightened.

After taking some quiet time for ME to prepare outdoors, I began setting up what would be our Circle.  Originally, I had planned to have a family photo as our centerpiece but the more we discussed "Mommy's homework" this week - the more the kids wished to contribute.   Below are photos of our talking piece (cardinal) and setup.   I deliberately chose the side of the house so that the neighborhood kids would not see us if/when they came out to play.   





If you want to do a little zoom-a-zoom in on the photos you will see the following items on our special baby blanket.   A family photo of the four of us, the "I love you" frame with a reference to the Sermon given at our wedding, Elliot's ultrasound photo, Nora's "OMG" ultrasound photo, Elliot's favorite hat (which he then decided to take back after it almost blew away - whoops), Rigatoni (my 41-year-old black cat stuffed animal), my Ubuntu book, and the Mama and Baby Fox Stuffies.   

While drawing what/who made us feel good, it was fun to see the excitement as the talking piece was (for the most part) shared appropriately.    It was like a merry-go-round of happiness and art before I really dropped the ball and we got into the ugly stuff.

Nora's feel goods:  Mommy, Daddy, Elliot, Curie Wakanda, 12/12's on Spelling tests, snuggles, train spotting with Elliot, nature, science, the new playground at school, going to camp, Minecraft, Gynecology (yea, you read that right - my 7-year-old wants to be a "ladies doctor" as has for years), playing outside (not as a gynecologist), Mrs. Martin, running, Mr. Bare, more nature, Miss Jody, Lorenzo, music, singing, fruit salad and salad made by and eaten with Mommy, Grammy's food.  

Elliot's feel goods:  Mom, Dad, Nora, Curie, Grammy, PawPaw, Buddy, CSX, Intermodal, Norfolk Southern, Railfanning, people that understand him, people that understand Autism, Bears, Deer, Nature, Hunting, Mrs. Wolfe, Mrs. Macri, Mr. Bare, Mrs. Smith, Art Supplies, Hiking, Alone Time, Snow Days, Sunsets, Swimming, Wet grass and bare feet






While listening to my husband echo a lot of what our children said and seeing them express joy after joy, I started to feel a bit bad about getting into our worries and stressors.   Also, while watching everyone draw, it was made abundantly clear that I am not the artist of the family.   

As we got into the next part of the plan where we would discuss things that worry/stress us, I was completely moved by a few things my son had to say.   My husband had done a drawing (see below) about his concerns over so much farmland in our area being turned into warehouses.

(Side note:   Hubs loves to draw, and this took him less than 3 minutes to do)


 Nora then shared how she feels when her Daddy is working a lot but also shared the joy of Daddy now working closer to home and us being able to be together more and have more table dinners.



But then there was Elliot.   I love his brain.   Autism is his SuperPower.   You'll notice, there's no drawing.  There's a reason.   Elliot told me that he felt if he talked about things that worry and upset him, that was okay.   But if he drew those things, it gave those things power.   A good amount of his worries stem around the very real possibility that President Trump could be elected again.  I've started memorizing who has Trump signs where and I avoid those roads when he is in the car with me.   If you're pro-Trump and want to stop reading, that's fine.   I'm pro-Elliot, and that man scares the piss out of my kids.   

Elliot expressed he is worried about the environment and climate change already, and he fears that if President Trump is elected we're "really in for it."   And while a majority of my son's life is expressed through art and exploration, he had so much to say.  At one point he was holding the talking piece so hard, I thought he was going to shatter it.   He worries about Mommy getting sick again and Daddy scooping hair out of the bathtub drain (I HATE that he remembers everything).    He worries about trains de-railing, family restaurants going out of business, and the fact that no one seems to talk about the bad side of electric cars.   He worries about the health of others, especially his grandparents.  He kept going and I wonder if I should have stopped him... but I didn't.    As he talked about fears for his brown friends and his gay friends and his farmer friends --- something amazing happened.   A red-tailed hawk flew right over us and he SAW it.   If you know our little family well, you know we believe in spirit animals and the red-tailed hawk is one of them.  


To be honest, after Elliot shared (and shared some more) - I really expected him to just be "done" with this whole process.   He wasn't.   He sat and listened to us all share and wasn't sure if he broke the rules when he got out of place to comfort his sister.

Nora is worried about the water temperatures in Florida now and the possible destruction of more coral reefs and why no one seems to talk about that, she is worried about the air being bad and the things they put in food, she is worried about bad things happening to her family.    She worries that if President Trump is elected that her friends with two mommies and two daddies won't be allowed to have two mommies and two daddies anymore.   She worries about going to second grade without Elliot being in the building anymore now that he is going to middle school.  






And while my husband and I did share, we took on more of a listening role and at the same time echoed some of the concerns our children shared.    While the script/plan may have called for us to draw what we look like when worried/stressed, I found that unnecessary to do considering I could see it.

Instead, we talked about our happy drawings and added to them.   We talked about our blessings.   We talked about safe people.   We talked about school-based counseling and therapy.  We talked about love and trust.   We talked about standing up for ourselves and others.   

We ended with music and our feet planted firmly in the grass... and I found myself in an emotional state I never saw coming.    This opportunity was a blessing.



Additional (but not all) of our drawings:






My first ever Circle Plan

First and foremost:  Be gentle with me, this is my first ever Circle Plan and if you look at the post above this, you will see how it went.  ;-)

Secondly:  this plan was done with my family and I was well-behaved and remained as neutral as possible.  

This plan was adapted from Circle Forward (2020) Module 5.2 (Who and What Makes Us Feel Good) and Module 5.5 (What Are You Worried About)

Sidenote:  I absolutely encourage you to check out all the books/resources available at Living Justice Press.   If/When ordering Circle Forward, please make sure you have the 2020 edition.   Also, Creating Restorative Schools is outstanding as well and I'm not just saying that because my professor may be reading this (and she wrote the book).   ;-) 

Here is a cut and paste of my plan with edits suggested by my professor.

I quickly learned this week while being "live" in class that it is okay to go off script and for the Circle to go in an interesting discussion.   Scroll up to see how this went.   


PREPARATION:

1. What is the purpose of your circle?

The purpose of this circle is to increase the emotional literacy of our family by discussing feel good emotions/scenarios as well as worry/stress emotions/scenarios   

2. What materials do you need?

Talking piece, circle center, drawing materials, values and guidelines 


3. How will you prepare your whole self for the Circle?

Outdoor quiet and barefoot meditation 


CIRCLE:   Wednesday, July 26th 6pm 

4. Opening Ceremony

Honoring the Land:   Feet in Grass

Lebanon County – Lenai Lenape 

Song:   “Better Place” by Rachel Platten 


5. Purpose Statement

Today I invite you to talk about the things that make you happy about yourself and our family.  We’re also going to talk about the changes happening in our lives, in society, and in our family and how that makes you feel.  


6. Centerpiece – what are you using? 

Family Photo(s) on 1st Baby Blanket

Invitation to place an item of importance on the blanket


7. Values/Guidelines 

Each person in Circle is valued.

We will listen to the best of our ability.

We will speak only when holding the talking piece.

We will take deep breaths if/when feeling frustrated.

We will give wait time to each member of the Circle.

We can hold hands with one another while speaking, but we must stay in our spot in Circle.  


8. Talking Piece (what is it, why, honor the talking piece)

Cardinal Figurine.   

In our family, we enjoy being out in nature.  For us, being out in nature is calming and healing.   When we see a Cardinal or a Red-Tailed Hawk, we believe it’s an angel saying “hello.”


9. Guiding Questions (related to purpose)

Drawings followed by discussion:

I invite you to draw a picture of what/who makes YOU feel good.

i. You are invited to tell us about your picture and why you drew it the way you did.  

ii. You are invited to share about the person you may have chosen to draw.

I invite you to draw a picture of something that makes you worry or simply prepare to share what worries you.

i. I invited you to hold up the drawing if you choose.

Draw a picture of what you look like when you feel worried (or stressed).

i. How can you tell others that you’re feeling worried?

ii. How can you tell if others are feeling worried?

iii. What can you do to help make you feel better about your worries?

Draw a picture of what you look like when you are not feeling worried or stressed.  

i. If you so choose, discuss what you drew.  

10. Check-out round

i. Is there anything else would you like to share with your family today?

ii. How do you feel about talking together as a family in Circle?  Is this something we should do more?

11. Closing Ceremony

Songs:

Brent Morgan – Gonna Be Okay

Zak Abel – Be Kind

Barefoot Family Grass Walk

Return to Circle

12. Thank everyone for coming and being in the circle.


References:

Boyes-Watson, C., & Pranis, K. (2020). Circle forward: Building a restorative school community. Living Justice Press. 

Wednesday, July 19, 2023

Oh the emotions...

Physical space can be something or nothing.

For those of you who know me and have been "with me" on my journey in education, you know that #phs117 was a big piece of my heart.   

In January, I learned that my room would become a Spanish Classroom and I'd be moved to what is now known as room 121, but was once the Custodian room.  It's literally less than 1/3 the size of #phs117, has barely any storage, and is directly next to the elevator and across from the cafeteria.   I was hoping some sort of space miracle would happen and I wouldn't be the one having to move, but that didn't happen.   

See, the thing is, #phs117 was filled with so many memories.    From Ryan's Spot, to the reading corner, to the shitty candy cane incident of 2022... there were so many memories.   The top photo is my last photo of #phs117 and it's not even an accurate photo as barely any of my things are in that photo.   Time and time again as people heard about this move and the rumors spread (honestly, hilarious), it was not uncommon for someone to come to me and say something along the lines of, "You don't need a big classroom to do the work you've done" or the best one, "You could teach in the dumpster behind Sheetz and still change lives" -- and while that's all appreciated, charming, and a smidge gross... it took until I started reading THIS book to really "Get it"    



I've been learning and reading about UBUNTU quite a bit these past few months and as I begin to unpack what will now be #phs121, I finally get it.   I am who I am today as an educator especially because of the lives that were before me in #phs117, if I have taught my students anything, it is to rise above and stand proud in who you are and what you're about.   I realized that everything I need to help these kids is already inside of me, and while #phs117 served me well, I am confident that moving to this tiny space will be a challenging adventure filled with possibility and awe.   



Video of #phs121 July 2023 -- obviously not set up or decorated.   


Friday, July 14, 2023

#nErDCampPA 2023!

 This is my second year attending  #nErDCampPA and I'm loving it!   The first SpotLight session was so honest and raw, truly appreciated!


 #nErDCampPA gives you a wide variety of sessions to attend.   The 10:15 session I chose was called Broadening Horizons through Novels in Verse - Across Content and Continents with the authors below.  I am super excited to add the following books to my "TBR Pile" 

FYI:  Aaron's books is graciously offering free shipping on orders of $50 or more.  

^^^^^ CLICK ABOVE for a link to Aaron's.  If you're in PA, Aaron's Books is located in Lititz, PA.   The books are also offered on Amazon, but it's always best {in my opinion} to shop local when you can.  "All the Fighting Parts" and "I am Kavi" are going to be released on September 19, 2023.   





Saturday, July 8, 2023

An inspiring two weeks...

The start of July marked the start of my second Restorative Justice in Education Graduate class through EMU.   Attending the RJE EMU conference definitely helped renew my spirit.   So much happened this past school year.  SO much.   I'm finally at a place of feeling back-to-me and I am eager to learn in hopes of having the courage to be an agent of change.

The class I am taking is called Facilitating Circle Processes. Even though the class is just kicking off, I'm already pleased to know that I'm in a safe place with amazing folks.

My class textbook is written by my professor and it's an amazing read. The book is called "Creating Restorative Schools" by Martha Brown. I'm not anywhere near finished this text, but I can tell you right now, it's worth it... and it sucks you in. You can order it here. It is also on Amazon, but LJP shipped just as fast and I think they're a better choice. We have a variety of texts we're working with, but the second required one is Circle Forward (click this).




I've read so much this week, but this quote by Gary Howard really stood out to me:

“An unexamined life on the part of a White teacher is a danger to every student.”
(Brown, 2018, p.39)

It always amazes me how fulfilled and inspired I feel in my graduate classes at EMU.

When I have time, and selfishly for my reference, I'll be posting some videos I've enjoyed.

I absolutely love what I am learning. LOVE!

Monday, July 3, 2023

Restorative Justice in Education Conference

This past spring, I completed my very first class on Restorative Justice in Education.   I absolutely fell in love with what I was learning.    

Need a recap?   Give this a clicky.

Want me to blow your mind about our pal Maslow?   Give this a clickety click.

So in true "I'm obsessed with my learning" form... I decided to treat myself and spend $100 to attend the RJE in EDU Conference and let me tell you... best spent money in a long time!   


Cool fact:   After the conference, they sent you the recordings of the sessions!   And yes, even the sessions you didn't choose!   #geeksout

So here are just a few (emphasis on FEW) takeaways before I re-watch and re-absorb the information.

Theme:  DIGNITY in the MIDST of CONFLICT
  • Conflict IS a learning OPPORTUNITY.
  • All SIGNIFICANT relationships have conflict.
  • There are invisible things happening at all times.   
  • BE PRESENT!
  • Have you looked at what your students CAN do instead of focusing on what they can't do?  Note to all:  it's not that they can't do it... it's that they can't do it YET.
  • Trick question alert:  what IS power?   Seriously... what is it? 
  • When you think of fairy tales and Disney stories... are you drawn to the hero or the villain?   When sitting in a circle, there is no hero and there is no villain.
  • The circle process can be many things, including spiritual.    The circle process is sacred.   Yes, we teach in public schools but the moment we walk into work, we do not leave our soul.   We do not leave our values or beliefs in the parking lot.   When we enter a circle, we're there and present... all of us.
  • Do not assess time in circle... no points are taken if a student isn't willing to share
  • How do you define JOY?   How do you celebrate JOY?
  • COMPREHENSION of anything or anyone begins with CONVERSATION
  • AAA: Acknowledge, Affirm, Act 

And lastly... 
Am I honoring?
Am I measuring?
What message am I sending?  

I am now beginning a very intense summer class on Circle Processes and I hope to remember to blog more about the conference as well as about my learnings on Circle Processes.    


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